Long Distance Relationship

Long Distance Relationship...*sigh*...Jeezz, about 3 or 4 months ago that was probably the phrase that I dreaded so much. The thought of not being there with my boyfriend, the thought of goodbye, the thought of losing communication and everything. I dreaded everything about LDR. Hmm, but now, as time passes by, as I'm going through this "Long Distance Relationship"....well, I think it's not that bad :)

Sure I can't be with my boyfriend, sure now I am not be able to do A LOT OF THINGS together with my boyfriend anymore, definitely sure we are APART, exactly continents and 4 hour time difference apart, but hey, all of those things are just the tip of the iceberg. Everything is about perspective, when you look at LDR that way, and I mean the sad I-can't-be-with-my-boyfriend or we're-apart cry-cry-cry, trust me, you won't even survive 1 month of LDR.

How about we look at things this way. Yes, I can't be with him, but I can still talk to him, I can still see his face everyday on Skype-Video Call. In fact, I AM GRATEFUL. Out of everything, I still have the opportunity and resources to see his face everyday. Not everyone can get that kind of opportunity. I mean, back in the old days, couples have to survive LDR only with letters, telegrams, and emails (as the technology progressed. Hell, now I can TALK and SEE his face through Video Call, that's a big thing ! I mean, compared to the old days, I'm lucky, very lucky.

Yes, we'll be apart. But maybe, us being apart is what make us stronger. Being apart will trial your loyalty, your patient and your love for your boy/girlfriend. Maybe after all of this ends, after we finally can be together, our relationship will be stronger than ever. Why ? because we have survived such big obstacle like LDR, if we can survive it, maybe we are meant to be together.

And the thing about LDR, you can not live with in complaints. Just be grateful for what you have, be patient and be loyal and as loving as ever to your boy/girlfriend.

And BELIEVE, believe that everything will be better in time. Believe in you boy/girlfriend, and more importantly, believe in God.

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Oh No...I think I'm a Social Network Addict

Online - Saykoji

Siang malam ku selalu menatap layar terpaku untuk online - online - online - online. --> Gw abis, yep siang - malem online trus, ga di kampus ga di rumah. wkwkwk.

Tidur telat bangun pagi pagi, nyalain komputer online lagi, bukan mau ngetik kerjaan, email tugas diserahkan.Tapi malah buka facebook padahal face masih ngantuk, beler kaya orang mabuk, pala naik turun ngangguk - ngangguk. ---> BENER ABIS ! gw tiap pagi bangun dr tempat tidur, nyalain komputer cuman buat nge-tweet "just woke up" ato nyalain torrent lagi. wkwkwk.

Sambil ngedownload empitri, colok iPod, USB kiri. ---> Yep, gw download lagu, film, kadang program juga. wkwkwk. iPod ga ada sih, tp flashdisk iya. wkwkwk.

Ngecekin postingan forum, ape ade balesannye? Belum. ---> DULU sih iya wkt msh aktif di forum, skrg ga tuh.

Biar belum sikat gigi belum mandi tapi kalo belum online paling anti. Liat friendster, myspace, youtube, me and HIM, everybody you too. ---> Ironically ini ada benernya juga, tapi GW CUMAN BUKA FACEBOOK, no friendster - myspace.

Siang malam ku selalu menatap layar terpaku untuk online - online - online - online. Jari dan keyboard beradu, pasang earphone denger lagu, aku online online - online - online. ---> YEP ! that's me ! wkwkwk

Nah uda mandi siap berangkat, langsung cabut takut terlambat.---> Yep, sempet - sempetnya nyalain komputer padahal lagi buru - buru biar ga ketinggalan bus.

Tak lupa flashdisk gantung di leher, malah lupa sepatu jadi nyeker. ---> KLO INI NGGAK YAH ! gw ga ngegantung flashdisk di leher kyk bapak - bapak kantoran gt !

Flashdisk isinya bokep ato lagu ---> NOPE, flashdisk gw isinya bersih, klo ga film blockbuster atau series yah data sekolah.

Kalo ada kerjaan pun gue ragu, kalo emang berani coba pada ngaku, cek isi foldernya satu satu. ---> Ih, cek aja sana ! beneran ada kerjaan sekolahnya. wkwkwk.

Di kantor online pake proxy, walau diblok server bisa dilolosi. ---> Untungnya sih di kampus gw internet ga di-block2 tuh. wkwkwk.

Namanya udah ketagihan internet, produktifitas pun kepepet. Jam kerja malah chatting YM, ngobrol online sama ehehem. Atasan lewat langsung klik data pura pura kerja didepan mata. ---> INI BENER !

Makan siang pun aku cari sinyal wi - fi ---> Aduh, bener banget. Dimana pun gw makan, gw nyari Wireless@SG. wkwkwkwk.

Mengapa ku kecanduan oh why why. Kadang terasa bagai tak berdaya, ingin ku berubaah... Eh, ada email uda dulu ya. ---> This is just plain hilarious. wkwkwk.

Cek email spam semua, email benerannya cuma dua, yang satu email lama yang satu forward-an yang sama. ---> Bener abis ! isi email cuman notifications dr twitter ato facebook ! wkwkwk.

Ngarep komentar buka friendser ---> FACEBOOK ! NOT FRIENDSTER !!!

Loading gua tinggal beser, pas balik ngecek komputer kok lagi maintenance server. ---> palingan internet hostel sih yang lagi ngajak berantem.

Yauda download lagu, bajakan gratis gak pake ragu. ---> skrg sih hobby-nya download film.

Saykoji satu album, setengah jam bisa rampung. ---> sayangnya download film paling cepet selese 1 hari...

So what do you think guys ? Should I get some help ? wkwkwk

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Life in Singapore So Far

Hi guys, as you know, I live in Singapore now, I'm studying Design Communication at Lasalle College of The Arts, and I intend to take Advertising Design as my specialization in Level 3. So that is a little introduction for you all.

Life in Singapore has been pretty good so far. New place, also new culture. There things that I found really interesting, and that is why I want to share them in this note :)

First, in my college, the lecturers don't want to be called by "Mr" or "Ms" or whatever, I found this very weird you know. Calling your teacher with their names, as if you are friends. That never happened to me in Indonesia.

Second, Singapore is a country FULL of RULES !!! Wherever you go, you'll see do-not sign, like, EVERYWHERE ! Don't do this and that, don't bring this and that, Fine SGD 1000, or whatever. Now I'm kinda getting used to all of those rules. I know rules are important, keep us in order, make a better life or whatever. But sometimes, I think people also need to have a little fun too, don't you think ? Just a little kind reminder for Singaporean, "Don't forget to have fun once in awhile, get out of the country if you can !"

Third, in Singapore, this part comes in my behalf, me coming from Indonesia and whatever. Well, how can I say this... EVERYTHING IS SO DAMN EXPENSIVE !!! Shampoo, soap, clothes, shoes, food, drinks, EVERYTHING !!! I don't get why Indonesians come here every year to shop, PEOPLE, IT'S MUCH MORE EXPENSIVE HERE !!! DUHH ??!!

Fourth, I like Singapore's public transportation service very much. They're easy, accessible everywhere, simple, functional and practical. They have this card called EZLINK, you can store your balance there and use it for any kind of public transportation (bus, MRT, LRT), you can even use it in 7 Eleven stores.

Fifth, in Singapore, I find it easier and cheaper just to buy food from outside then cooking. Cooking takes a lot of time, but that doesn't mean that I won't cook ever. Just that, maybe not now, maybe in holidays or Project Weeks where I'll have lots of spare times. I will learn how to cook ! I will and I must !

Oh, one thing about buying food outside...this part is a bit annoying to me. I frequently stumbled upon some difficulties when buying food outside. Sometimes, the auntie or uncle CAN'T SPEAK ENGLISH !!! What kind of people living in Singapore nowadays that can't speak english ? Now when this problem surfaces, you have no choice but to use.....the sign languange.....Let me give you some examples, sometimes it's like : "NUMBEEEERRRR TWOOO !!! TWOOOO !!! NUMBER TWOOOOO !!!" *desperately pointing at the menu picture*, or sometimes you just poke and point desperately at your choice of menu.

Okay, my friend came to my room when I wrote this and asked me to accompany him cook noodles downstair, so I left it and when I came back my writing mojo was gone....Hmm...I think I'll leave it here...Hahahhaa...(such a cliffhanger)

Oh and by the way (I just remembered this as I reposted this post from my facebook notes), did you know that in Singapore they CHARGE you for RECEIVING CALLS ? Yeah....but in the good side, the operators here are quite nice, they have like top up for 28 dollars and you got 100 dollar bonus ! or top up 15 dollars and get 30 dollar in bonus. Nice, eh ? :)

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You Just Have to Let it Go

For these pas few weeks, I've been struggling inside. Why ? Well, maybe because I realized that my time is almost up. I'll be going to Singapore on July 26th. Meaning,no more hanging out with my friends, and worst....I can't be there with my boyfriend. Since the first time we hooked up, we knew that we're going to have to do long distance relationship, because I'm going to Singapore and he's going to New Zealand. I know that I have to be strong, I suppose to have faith and everything. But the thing about fear, it's just...amazing how fear can get you, makes you doubt everything, makes you pessimistic. So last night, I finally had the chance to talk to my boyfriend about this. And, I just feel enlightened. He reminded me of something that is so important, that I forgot, the most fundamental thing, is that, "you just have to let it go".

Everything in this world, our car, our stuff, our lovers, they're not ours ! They're God's. That's why He can take it away from us anytime He wants. I realized, "why do I have this terrible fears ?", maybe it's because I was holding everything too tight. I felt that that is mine, I fought my way for it, and I deserved it ! Well, I was wrong.

I have to let it go, the more you hold on to something, the more pain you'll have. Like what my boyfriend always said, "Have faith in God, everything is for the best". He's right, even if I won't get what I want, maybe it's for the best. Maybe God has a bigger and better plan for me. And even if my boyfriend and I do not make it in the future, maybe it's for the sake of us too, maybe God has a different plan for us. And there's no point on fighting God's will, believe everyhting is for the best.

The best thing that happened last night was, we made a deal, that if we really do break up in the future, the worst thing we can be is "best friend". I thank him for that. He's so precious to me, but I have to realize that he's not mine. I have to realize that whatever happen in the future, it's for our best.

But that doesn't mean that I won't fight for him, that if one problem come up, I'll just give up, NO ! You to fight for what you love, but you have to know when to quit to. You have to know when it's time to let go.

A lesson well learned, thank you Thomas, and thank you God.

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National Exam

Like every 12th grade student, I also enrolled in the late National Exam, it's compulsary in fact. I have many disappointments on the late National Exam, I practically made a note on Facebook to outleash my rage. I think I'm just going to copy it here. The note is titled, "Ujian Nasional Matematika tingkat SMA/MA 22 April 2009".

I could probably come up with 10 facebook status' just to show you guys how bloody irritating today's Mathematic National Exam was, but I can't post them all, so I thought, why not put them all in a note ? So here we go....

1. I think I'm going to kill Bambang Sudibyo, anybody want to join me ?

2. I could find the answer for all of those fucking questions, I JUST NEED BLOODY MORE TIME !!!

3. When you ask me to search for a variant, didn't you think that 16 numbers are too many ? Oh but wait, I forgot that National Exam purpose in the first place was to torture High School student, so never mind....

4. I thought I was the one who didn't manage to finish the fucking exam, turned out, I wasn't alone, in fact, it was EVERYONE !!!

5. ARE YOU HAPPY BAMBANG SUDIBYO ???!!! It's really fun to torture high school kids, isn't it ? What are you some kind of bloody asshole psychopath ? You got some issues back then with your daddy, huh ?!

6. No point in doing all of those bloody Try Outs if we ended up even worse in the National Exam !

7. Want to know the difference between Try Outs and National Exam ? National Exam is supposed to be EASIER !!!

8. Hey Bambang Sudibyo ! what, you have some kind of death wish ???!!!

9. My sympathy goes to the IPA's students...I know you guys bear a bigger burden and torture than we ( the IPS's students) do...

10. An advice from Bambang Sudibyo, or whoever made this fucking math test, IT'S A TWO HOUR TEST !!! Students are human, not a bloody robot who can work on one question in a minute ! Next time, try easier and simpler questions or at least GIVE US MORE TIME !!!

This is an additional point....

It's not that WE DIDN'T STUDY HARD, in fact, WE DID STUDY....REALLY HARD !!! The test was not that difficult too, I can say that I could find the answer to all of the questions IF I HAD MORE TIME. So whoever read this note, mind that it's not our fault, for we have study really hard, and we have done our best. It's the matter of the complication of the questions, they required MUCH TIME to work on. Conclusion ? back to my point number 10, either you make a SIMPLER questions or GIVE US MORE TIME !!!

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I have a boyfriend now !

I would like to start my comeback by updating my relationship status. I know it's late, since the event was actually happened in February, but what the heck. So, if you've read my blog, you know that I've posted one or two articles about this guy, and now that he's my boyfriend, I think I can say it out loud that the guy's name is Thomas.

Jeez, quite a history I have with this guy. Almost 1 and a half year. We started out as friends, then became best friends and so on. I was waiting for so long, and now my wait is over. He confessed to me about his feelings on February 9th 2009. It's the day when we became boyfriend and girlfriend. My happiest day so far.

And now, we have been in a relationship for almost 4 months. I'm very happy, he's always there for me, and he's just such a nice guy. I love him, and although we will be apart for the next 4 years, I hope that our relationship will last.

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I'm Back

Wow it's really been a long time. I was so busy with exams and everyhthing, I seemed to forgot about my blog. Well, it's holiday now, and I think it's time to pay my debt. Where should I begin ? So many things to tell...

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